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been a few days. i have kept on the program as i promised myself. i have a cold and have had it the past few days. it is not beating me but it is not making my days any easier, that’s for sure. i am not taking anything for it except my usual helping of good food and vitamins. i think my body is still in the “reset” stage where it is getting used to this stuff. this cold snuck in as a result of that. once i get going i am hoping that taking care of my body will prevent me from getting a cold. if not i will figure out something 8).


this week is a lower body week. i do 2 days of lower body weight lifting and one of upper body. i feel pretty good about my lower body. no, not in how it looks, but instead on the burn and pain i feel when working it out. i don’t even need any weights really, but working it out feels good. doing the different exercises i have been trying to focus more on the burn and the feel of each muscle. i think i have finally figured out the abs and calves workouts. for abs the keys for me were to gently place my hands behind my head. not together but just place them there. they serve no purpose in this exercise really. i was using them to pull my head up but i did not realize this till recently. now i actually life the shoulders and push down with the lower back. during the whole exercise i try and flex the stomach if i can. sometimes i do it at the top. i have to get stronger to do it through the whole exercise. practice makes perfect. for the calves i start with my weight on the balls of my feet. it never leaves that spot till i have finished all my reps. i may touch the ground with my heal but only so gently and then right back up again. that was the key there.


one thing i learned recently was the importance of working out slow. you have to try and focus when working out. don’t just go through the motions. instead go up slow, try and feel the muscle expand, then hold for a count of one, and then contract. again, trying to feel the muscle. focus on the muscle you are working out, not on the motion, but the muscle. Imagine it growing and flexing. try and feel it as you are working it out. only that muscle, no others. i found that this really helps. i have to admit it though, i cannot feel some of them yet, but i am working on it. this takes time, but before long i am sure that i will get it.


i measured myself the other day, i thought i lost an inch and three quarters in the waste. i think i measured it wrong. i am not worried though. i am not expecting to see changes for 2 more weeks. it takes time getting an engine going, getting some life kicking in it. the key though, which i am hammering into myself every day is not weight loss. that is just dumb and makes no sense. you need to focus on fat loss and muscle gain. muscle weighs more the fat. you may be heavier one week but fund that you lost 2 lbs of fat but gained 4 of muscle. this is better for you body and for your goals. so i stay focused and realize what i am looking for. learning more and more every day.


eating … i am liking this. i can honestly say that in the past 2 weeks i have not been hungry once. not a once. i have not been “full” either. i have been comfortable. there is a difference. i can feel my body working to digest and energize. i also started taking the phen-free this week on the days that i do cardio. i find that it makes me sweat a lot on those days, but i think it is worth it. Means that my body is working harder on making the new me. i started eating brown rice this week. i did not realize it was so easy to make, and it tastes pretty good as well. surprising but true. all in all i think i am doing very well, though i need to add more veggies. and i promise to myself that i will do it starting this week. i will buy a ton of frozen veggies this weekend. and cook them every day with my steamer. i started today actually. good stuff.


i received my new book shelves today. finally i can take all my books out of boxed and put them on a shelf where they belong. finally …. yeeehaaaa …. i spent most of the night arranging and unpacking my books. i finally have it looking the way that i want to. i am proud .. now i need to take care of some other stuff like end tables and a new filing cabinet and i will actually have a house and not a place i sleep at.


working toward the new sean 2.0.

one of these days i am going to put you on a nice website. till then you are just a mailbox. had a good day today. did my lower body workout today. also finished up the workout from monday doing the other 2 upper body workouts i missed (biceps and triceps). today i was so sore … how sore was i? well lets just say i had a hard time all day getting out of the damn chair. it felt good knowing that my body was rebuilding … and some of the pain from my upper body was gone except that me working the 2 other parts of the upper body out today as well kind of threw some stuff off. so my chest muscles were sore and my lower body was sore. people were looking at me like i was weird, but screw them 8).


it snowed like mad today. had to walk to the train in that .. and then to top it off … i was tired from the workout this morning and i fell asleep on the train. i was out for like 5 minutes .. but what happened at that time. of course, i missed my stop. so instead of getting home at 7:45 i got home at 8:50. arg .. i really have to learn. this was the first time i fell asleep on a train though. i did it one time on a bus and missed my stop by like 2 miles so one for each for of transportation is fine by me. hehhehe …


anyhow, i am getting a lot of reading done. i am proud of where i am now. i am starting to work on some goals now. i think my goal is going to be 10lbs a month. i think i can sustain that and work in that area. if i do more then great. i think that the bfl program will allow me to do this. really though i think 30 lbs in 12 weeks is a better goal. that way if i gain muscle in a period of time i will still feel like i am on track and not get discouraged. this time working out is like last time except that there are no holidays in my way. i really want this and think that this time i can achieve it.


well i think that is all for now … catch you tomorrow

i had a good day today. i worked out on the cycle in the morning and then went to work. i did miss the 8:50 train to downtown though so i had to drive to work. what a pain in the ars. i was looking forward to denting my books some more. i am getting a lot of reading done, it excites me. i have always wanted to read more and now i have the time. anyhow, maybe tomorrow i can read more.


i was told that i need to learn everything about the systems we have at work. since i am the architect it is my role to design the systems and fit them into the architecture. i am sure that i will be doing coding as well so i will be kind of an architect/developer/project manager. pretty demanding but i think this is the direction that my career needs to go. i like the people here and the environment is very fast paced as well. much better then at mypoints.


tomorrow i am planning on finishing up my upper body exercises and then doing the lower as well. i figure an hour and half or so should be enough time. i am not sure. it will be painful but worth it. i hate having the feeling like i cheated or something. i really want to get into this for life, not a one off thing. i need to get this damn body into shape so that i can do things i have always wanted to do, like travel damn it.


anyhow, back to work … see ya tomorrow.

started my working out heavily today. i woke up a bit late since i was cooking late last night so i did not get exercising till around 5:30am. i have to make the 8:15 train so i was not able to finish all 5 exercises. this is my first time doing them so it takes a little bit longer to finish them changing weights and all. i am going to finish the last 2 exercises on wednesday when i do the lower body. i will just give myself like an hour and a half or so to do exercise that day. anyhow, after the workout today i was huffing and puffing and sweating like crazy. it felt great to stretch my body to do something i have not done this intensely in a long while. i really liked it. i am looking forward to my new body for life.


work was good … still ramping up. this is only my second week on the job. i am digging in code and installing the software that i need on my new computer. i hope to be up and running by next week kicking ass and taking names.


this starting over anew is really rejuvenating. with a new job and a new view on life i am fixing my body. i had a image in mind for my new website in regards to this. in big letters … “sean willson 2.0” … since this is the new me and the old sean is gone to the history books for study later. i think it is human to err and i have done a lot of that. but now i am learning how to physically take care of myself. maybe i will evolve to the 3.0 stage and evolve my mind further to meditation and such. i will worry about that when 2.0 sean is no longer vapor ware.


till then …. cya tomorrow.

had a good weekend. i bought a new incline decline / bench, some weights, some barbell bars, a protective floor mat, a stop watch, 2 new pairs of shoes, and a food steamer. it felt good to spend some money on me. it has been a while that is for sure. sure it would be nice to have a new wardrobe but that will come with time when i invent the new me. it is going to take a long long time to transition but in the end it is going to be worth it.


as a part of the new me i tried to identify the things that were holding me back in all different aspects of my life. one of them was the disarray that my apartment was in. i never quite feel comfortable there. so i tried to figure out why. well one huge thing is the clutter of all the boxes. so i cleaned up the empty ones and stored the flattened ones in the hall closet till i move again. who knows when .. hehhe … i then went out shopping again and bought some new book shelves. they are really cool … i am totally psyched. they are cubist design, all cubes stacked on top of each other. one unit, but that is what they look like. anyhow, they were a bit pricey, but i am going to do anything and everything that i can to get myself into shape mentally and physically. they will be delivered around the end of the month. that should get rid of all of the rest of the boxes in the living room. with a little organizing i will have that area wooped into shape as well.


i spent the better part of 2 hours on sunday cooking for for the week. basically all chicken till i can figure out how to cook something different. i am really pumped about starting on monday morning. i am doing the 5 workouts of the upper body from the body for life book. i went and copied a ton of the schedules and spent some time this evening planning my day tomorrow. i did not get to bed till midnight. i hope i have enough sleep for tomorrow. well see in the morning.


till tomorrow ….. cya